My Online Diary "Quest for Freedom!"
An insight into the illness ~ Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Dear Diary:
My OCD is doing fine, I'm still able to do everything I want to do and so it continues to be kept in control thank goodness. I shall be having some time away for a break and am hoping to get my ears pierced again. I had my ears pierced when I was eleven and enjoyed wearing earrings up untill an unforgetable "OCD moment" that scared the hell out of me and gave a clear insight into how strong and powerful this illness can be!
I had been wearing some earrings that weren't Gold or Silver and they started to make my ears itch. This itching eventually turned into a slight stinging, but, to me my ears and earrings were contaminated, I had wore them to my parents house one of the most contaminated places to me and for several days I was unable to touch my ears or change my earrings.
They eventually started to hurt but I never dreamt that what then happened could possibly happen! I convinced myself that I would be able to sort out my ears soon and once the offending earrings were removed they would be as good as new!! How wrong I was!
I felt something drop down from one of my ears and then a couple of moments later from the other one too, thinking my earrings must have fallen out I looked down and froze as I gazed at not just my earring posts but the earring backs still attatched to the posts and laying on my lap! My earrings had caused an infection that had effectively eaten through the flesh of my ears and split them!
The sight of these had made me feel physically sick and it was a horrendous wake up call to what I was letting this illness do to me and my body.
My ears have healed up now and you wouldn't know anything so awful had happened to them but I really miss wearing pretty earrings in them, so If I'm brave enough then I shall have them re-pierced this summer!
All for now, hope you reading this are as well as possible! love and hugs, Sani. xx
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November 18th, 2002